"It's not about..." He struggles to find the words to explain it. "He didn't want me to—choose what I did." He can't meet Akechi's eyes as he says it. His skin crawls with shame. "He was really... It hurt him. So I—I can't just. Decide not to feel bad. I owe it to him. He deserves that from me. I could've stopped this from happening at so many points, but I just. Didn't."