"I didn't have a motive. I just—I couldn't stand it anymore. People kept making me make that decision. The exact same damn decision. I only had so much to give."

He looks away, fidgeting with a lock of his hair. "That's all. I wasn't scheming anything. I didn't—I didn't want any of this. I just wasn't strong enough to make that decision again. I'm not surprised his Shadow hates me."