[There's quiet for a moment, but it's a pondering sort of quiet. In the end - ]
Because I didn't think it would change anything. As I'm sure you know all too well, even if we want to go it alone, society isn't designed for that. Better to paint on the acceptable face and survive.
[It's a cognitive journey, so the road seems darker. This one, though, he's not doing intentionally. It's just the effect of a powerful psychic presence in a Mood on the environment.]
'If nothing's going to change, then what's the point of taking the risk?' I wanted to live. Even if that meant gritting my teeth and bearing the unbearable.
[He pauses, and adds,]
Besides, you're mistaken. At the time, I didn't think much about it at all. I've had three years to think about everything I could have done differently, both for better and for worse.
Why didn't I do it? Because the chains on my mind that said I couldn't had to go, first, and getting rid of those is much easier on the other side.
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Because I didn't think it would change anything. As I'm sure you know all too well, even if we want to go it alone, society isn't designed for that. Better to paint on the acceptable face and survive.
[It's a cognitive journey, so the road seems darker. This one, though, he's not doing intentionally. It's just the effect of a powerful psychic presence in a Mood on the environment.]
'If nothing's going to change, then what's the point of taking the risk?' I wanted to live. Even if that meant gritting my teeth and bearing the unbearable.
[He pauses, and adds,]
Besides, you're mistaken. At the time, I didn't think much about it at all. I've had three years to think about everything I could have done differently, both for better and for worse.
Why didn't I do it? Because the chains on my mind that said I couldn't had to go, first, and getting rid of those is much easier on the other side.