That's a common first reaction. I'm not in a position to judge; my baseline hasn't been normal since my mother died, and Shido certainly didn't help.

[His perspective on 'fucked up' is skewed. That's part of the reason he makes a good Reaper. It's hard to bother him in that regard.]

We call it the Reaper's Game because we have to call it something, and a game is closer than most of the other options. It's a game; it's a test; it's a cognitive secondary reality on par with the Metaverse. My partner once called it an anvil. You can choose your metaphor.