I understand your hostility, Ren, truly. From what I’ve gathered, it seems my actions in other dimensions have left a trail of suffering, and if I were in your position, I might feel the same. But you need to understand—I don’t remember much beyond December 24th. Whatever I’ve done elsewhere, I am not that Maruki. Not anymore.
Azathoth knows this truth better than anyone, and I’ve been working to untangle my scattered memories to ensure I don't repeat mistakes I can't even fully recall. I am conflicted—if my powers are a threat, I must tread cautiously. But I also won’t allow myself to be judged solely on actions I don’t remember or to have my abilities weaponized by those who see them only as tools.
I am not claiming to be innocent or blameless. I just want you to see that mistakes, struggles, and regrets aren’t unique to me. From what I’ve observed, your other selves and others in your circles have made their own errors. Maybe the real question is whether we use those failures as reasons to condemn each other—or as reasons to understand.
I’ll say this, Ren—if this Amada-kun has some tether to his humanity, something that could allay his hostilities and teach him humility, I could help. I would even be willing to try. But only with mutual respect. Otherwise, I will simply defend myself against him when the time comes. Nothing more, nothing less.
With that, Maruki switches off his phone- eyes shutting close in deep contemplation before his attention goes back to his lab. Ken Amada- whoever he is; must have his own weakness. Perhaps all he can really do is investigate.
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Azathoth knows this truth better than anyone, and I’ve been working to untangle my scattered memories to ensure I don't repeat mistakes I can't even fully recall. I am conflicted—if my powers are a threat, I must tread cautiously. But I also won’t allow myself to be judged solely on actions I don’t remember or to have my abilities weaponized by those who see them only as tools.
I am not claiming to be innocent or blameless. I just want you to see that mistakes, struggles, and regrets aren’t unique to me. From what I’ve observed, your other selves and others in your circles have made their own errors. Maybe the real question is whether we use those failures as reasons to condemn each other—or as reasons to understand.
I’ll say this, Ren—if this Amada-kun has some tether to his humanity, something that could allay his hostilities and teach him humility, I could help. I would even be willing to try. But only with mutual respect. Otherwise, I will simply defend myself against him when the time comes. Nothing more, nothing less.
With that, Maruki switches off his phone- eyes shutting close in deep contemplation before his attention goes back to his lab. Ken Amada- whoever he is; must have his own weakness. Perhaps all he can really do is investigate.