"You're not wrong there. Sometimes I still wish my father would be what he should have been this whole time, even though I accepted years ago that he is not and will never be."

Sometimes she wonders what her grandfather would have to say about how she let her father make a monster out of her, because she thought he'd look upon her kindly for it. She's not sure she could bear her grandfather's disappointment; she's not sure how he could be anything but disappointed.