Maybe they weren't anything to each other, but to Ren, Goro was—

He turns in Goro's arms and drops his head onto his shoulder. "But I changed my mind before you got here," he says dully. "Last October. You weren't even around, nothing about us had changed, but I still decided the plan sucked. So I could've done it whenever."

If Ren had just been brave, for once in his entire fucking life, maybe Goro's life wouldn't have hung by a thread. If there had been a point to being loved by him.