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LC! Akira ([personal profile] linkclickakira) wrote in [community profile] personavelvetroomdr2024-09-19 07:03 pm

My heart desires death (Second-death post) [Restricted]

"Second death"


TW: death, gore, damaged flesh, suicide, possible panic attack in the threads

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Akira knew what he was doing.

This had happened before. A gun against his head and a trigger being pulled. Such simple actions, isn't it? Humanity had made it their sole birthright to use their intelligence in uprooting each other from their very bones and flesh as if their words and small actions weren't enough. Letting something wager someone's death on its other end- the sole duty of a gun and Akira had callously thrown away his life with it. As he always does. When Goro stood on the other side of the table, telling him things didn't have to turn this way if he just stayed away the moment he told him to. When he watched behind the door at the young grieving girl who blamed herself for her mother's death.

When he killed him. In anger. In frustration. In sheer fucking betrayal.

Except something was wrong.

He felt wrong.

He should have awakened to his previous picture amongst the crowds in his own world. He had a plan. He would be away from this otherworldly hell-hole and once again savour the one year he has in order to save everyone he cares about.

But then...what was this? He couldn't move. He was floating somewhere, his face facing a large gaping abyss. A sea of sorts, his chest heavy as he finds himself floating like the very particles of sand in an hourglass. His fingers weren't responding to him. He couldn't speak. He couldn't scream. What the hell went wrong here? Where is he?!


"It seems you are not enjoying the amenities of this world to the fullest, trickster," he hears a familiar voice speak but fuck it's everywhere. It's wiggling in his ears, itching into his eardrums; it's blaring through his whole body, shaking him to the very core. "I was hoping the first death would have been our last but- it certainly doesn't seem like it now."

The long-nosed man's uncanny grin looks up at the suspended floating body of Kira. A clear bullet hole at the centre of his forehead with blue gleaming from the injury's core- as if healing him from within. Regenerating back as if nothing had happened in the first place.

"What a shame."
pheasantboy: ([cut-in] oh gosh)

[personal profile] pheasantboy 2024-09-21 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
And then, from the Tokyo door, there's a sound of shattering glass. Ignoring his fallen shopping bag, Sparrow just stares, and stares, and stares, a hand of ice around his heart.

He rushes forward, staring at the hovering figure, turning to Igor in anguish. "What have you done to him?"

Igor just shakes his head, grinning behind his folded hands. "Look again, Goro Akechi. This is not your Trickster."

Sparrow does, indeed, look again. No, not the right one at all. The clothes, the camera.... all are wrong. But the blue glow around him, regrowing the last of his extremities—he knows he sees it in his nightmares.

"Oh, Ren," he whispers, looking away, and stepping back to wait.
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[personal profile] pheasantboy 2024-09-21 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
And, even though it's not his Ren this time, Sparrow waits all the same. Nobody should wake alone, here. He couldn't have left anyway.

Haunted, ironically, by memory, he waits until he hears his own name breathed by familiar lips. His heart skips a beat before his mind remembers.

"You're safe, R—" Just in time, he remembers himself, swallowing. "You're safe, Amamiya-kun. You're in the—" Damn it, what was it called? "The blue room."
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[personal profile] pheasantboy 2024-09-22 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
Sparrow stares, again frozen, again cast back into his own worst memories. His own Ren, curled on the floor in his new apartment, as he and Shrike tried to calm him. As if Sparrow had seen anything like it in his life, the way Ren's own emotion turned to acid.

Powerlessness beats in his throat. Then, from somewhere lost to him, he pulls up a calmer, steady voice. "Not Amamiya? My apologies. Then—it's Kurusu-kun, right?"

Easy, lilting words. Why couldn't he begin to do this for Ren? "Either way, you are safe, though I know it doesn't feel that way. Nothing can happen to you here."
Edited 2024-09-22 12:00 (UTC)
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[personal profile] pheasantboy 2024-09-22 05:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, that's not good. Sparrow jumps to his feet, aware again of how downright powerless he is to stop anyone here doing whatever they want to—

and something whispers past him, invisible, out of earshot—

—he had to just stand there on the subway platform like a doll, while Ren died. He meets Igor's eye accusingly, getting nothing but that endless, maddening grin in return.

Pulling himself together, he steps over Igor's desk lamp, which is rolling on the floor without even going out. "Kurusu-kun," he says, firmly. "Please listen to me. It sounds as if there's something you need to know."
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suicide imagery

[personal profile] cybermask 2024-09-28 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
It had taken her longer than she would have liked to get over. She had expected to see him shoot himself infront of her. It bothered her more than she'd like to admit. She hadn't see what happened to bodies here and that bothered her more than anything else.

After a text to her brothers, a quick, family meeting later, she pulled herself together. She made her way to grab a drink, and then the glowing blue door that appeared when ever you needed it.

"Akira!" She shouted. It wasn't too loud, she was more announcing her presence. She took steps to him, her steps slow, calculated, making sure he wasn't spooked.

She placed a hand on his shoulder, "Hey, breathe for a moment."
Edited 2024-09-28 19:54 (UTC)
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-01 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, just breathe. It's going to be okay." She said calmly, slowly. It's the only way she knew how to calm people down. Not that she'd had much experience with it.

She kneeled down to be beside him, she didn't want to tower over him. As much as she wanted to say what was he thinking it seemed whatever he tried hadn't worked. That caused him to panic.

Now it was her turn to answer his question, "I was right there when you tried that, I know what happens when people die here. You aren't the first one."
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-04 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
She couldn't help but let out a laugh. "You can't think you are the first to do something like that in front of me. Some think it's better or more honorable to do that then by my hands," she shrugs, not that him having the face of her brother didn't bother her. That was something she'd check later. If he'd let her, who knows if he's even home. She bit her lip, she needed to be here now.

"Relax, relax, I'm not taking it to heart." She smiled. "When powers are taken from you it's very disorienting, and it's hard to grasp your new reality. Igor made this space, and we aren't sure why even with all our theories he doesn't answer us."

"I'm not your Futaba, I'm an unknown factor to you, I don't hold anything against you."
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-05 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
“You are not nothing without your powers, you still exist.” She sighed. She hadn’t ever thought of Igor like a puppet bit that’s might be something she adds to the list of theories. A higher power, that was something that she might want to investigate on her own.

“It’s not pathetic, who hasn’t had a mental breakdown when they got kidnapped into an alternate dimension and told they couldn’t go home until they made friends with people.” She sat down next to him, leaning on him slightly.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-07 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
"Yep. that's the whole point of this place, to make friends." she shrugged, "not like we are a bunch of murderers or happy-go-lucky bunch." She shook her head. Her gaze looking over at their captor before coming back.

"It's quite a lovely group we've got too, we've also got people who might murder each other so I don't think it's quite just making friend lala land. It's not perfect by any means, we've still got drama..." her voice trails off, "my brother had a palace, but he's got his boyfriend now."
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-07 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
She stared at him, "Do you not know what a palace is? Do you know what personas are?" oh boy, she was about to ruin his entire perception if that was true. Almost everyone here knew about that stuff anyways so it was brought up pretty often.

"Goros are easy to upset, they hold things against others," she shrugged, "don't hold it against them."

She sighed, her knees pulling up to her chest. "Goros and Rens seem to get together a lot. I think there's something that ties them together. They tend to be all focused on each other, doing everything they can," even leaving others behind, even if they try not to. She knew the day would come, she just wanted to live in her delusion for a little while longer, she didn't want to fake around them.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-07 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
She laughed, "No palaces are ruled by shadows and people's darkest desires. Maybe you should win the lottery ever tried it?"

Someone summoned a persona on him. Who did he piss off? Poor guy didn't even know much and got nearly got spawn killed. He'll be okay eventually. Who ever was pissed off will get over it, in due time.

"I do," she answers honestly. Seemed Akira has something going on with his Goro too, but she wasn't high enough level to access that information yet. She had a feeling it had to deal with the time travel, like Crane.

"While we can't trash the velvet room, I do know we can trash several other locations. Like the diet building." she grinned. She leaned back before rocking back onto her feet.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-07 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
That certainly cheered him up. She couldn't help but laugh. "I'm entirely serious, I'm sure we wouldn't even be the first." She shrugged. She stretched her hands up above her head.

"We have demolished a building before, though I'm not sure how it was done. building rebuild themselves, so we can do any option you'd prefer." It would be something to keep her mind busy too after all. "The hard part is getting the supplies, but who would I be if I didn't know dealers." She winked.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-09 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
She smiles, he was fun. That was better than what she’s been doing. It was better than wandering too. He was a bit like Ren, she could see them reflected in each other. It hurt her a little, but she pushed those feelings down.

“He really does,” She walked over to the door, “This is our door, if you are serious about heading home while I get the materials. I’ll text you?” She offers, she never imagined respawning was much fun but she didn’t see it first hand until now and she would prefer to not see it again.

She started putting together a plan on how to deal with the building and get the supplies there. Maybe she could avoid people for a while, maybe she could avoid home for a while.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-11 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
I feel like I am the younger sibling between us right now. That repeated a few times in her head, ah maybe that's just how she's viewed, maybe that's why it was so easy to have someone else by their side. A sister is just a sister after all.

She was pulled out of her thoughts with a hand on her head, her bangs being messed with she blinked quickly as she tried to figure out what was happening. "Force of habit..." she mumbled under her breath.

"I don't think I'll purge it, be haunted by the fact I will always know," she taunted.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-12 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
She studied him as he reacted, it was always a good idea when met with someone new, no matter how similar they were to someone else you know. Or if they were the same person.

His lip came up and she was instantly aware of intent. His hand raised and she stepped back and ducked, not this time, Akira.
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-13 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
He was playful, but he could become serious on a moment's dime, that was something she'd have to get used to. It seemed to be a trait that several of them shared, but she'd never guess who had what.

"Don't worry over it. You looked stressed and in pain. Everyone adjusts over time. It just takes some longer than others," she glances away, "don't lose hope about whatever you are missing. Time pauses back home. You aren't missing anything." She meets his eyes with a sad smile, one she can't even make her pretended joy, her masked sadness coming almost fully to light. "If the past is anything to go off of, he'll probably show up here in the future, if it be a year later, or less."
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[personal profile] cybermask 2024-10-19 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
She sighed, then placed a hand on his shoulder. "Akira, it'll be okay," she said softly. She gave him a smile then squeezed her hand and stepped back, "go nap, I'll take care of gathering the equipment."

She couldn't think of what he was thinking she couldn't imagine it. She did know that this was going to be a way to get some things off her chest and that was going to be what kept her going for now.